I am going to take those challenges from last year as a learning experience. I do know that some of those issues and situations could have been avoided. I don't want to use my PTSD as an excuse. I know I can move beyond that. But, it is a factor. I am putting the skills, that were taught to me by the VA Center on how to deal with my stress, anger, and communications issues, to use. It's just not easy sometimes.
Some of the things I have learned from last year. I know who are my family, friends, and relatives. The saying, "You know who your friends are, when you're in trouble, and when you turn around, those still standing there are your friends", rings true for me. I now know the difference between family and relatives. You would think that they are one and the same. No, it is not. There is a huge difference. I also did a lot of reflection on Asian family values and Western family values.
I have learning not to take myself to seriously at times. That my venting is just that, venting. Don't pent up the negatives, let it vent out. But vent out in a proper venue at my counseling sessions or during my workout, turn that negative into a positive.
On the Positive Side,
My Neni girl, Larraine, graduated from Kindergarten in March. She looks absolutely stunning in her white gown, that her grandma made for her.
I'm a member of the Reaching Out TV Ministry at Abundant Life Church In April. It is the newest ministry in our church. I'm one of many cameramen and woman. I thought when I first joined that it would be easy. No, it was not. It's a lot harder than it looks. But, it is fun. I do know I've improved a lot since we started, not just from feedback from the team leaders and pastor. But also from the recorded video's we bring home to self-critique. The whole team has improved A LOT, not just me.
I am thankful for Dindin, Rhoda's cousin, and Sharon, Rhoda's best friend, for coming into our lives last May and June. Their friendship, help, and loyalty to Rhoda, has actually made things bearable for her to deal with. I am really glad that they're now part of our family. Both of them are Larraine's Nina's (godmothers).
Matua Ranch is blessed with the arrival of a litter of puppies from our ranch dog, Duchess. Scout and Ranger are doing great.
I decided in November to be a full time Rancher. I didn't make that decision lightly. I consulted with close family and friends, my VA social worker, and Doctors. Since I made the decision and commitment, things have started to move smoothly and blessings are sprouting.
Matua Ranch goat herd increased by 4 goat kids in November. Along with 3 kid doelings, the last kid was a kid buckling. The ranch also acquired to 2 rabbits. With the new additions to the ranch, I hope to use them in our breeding program.
I spent Thanksgiving with the Benavente Family in Barriagada. I was invited by Pastor Joe and Lou to have lunch with them. Food was great!
Abundant Life Church's Annual Christmas Party was a great hit. My dinner and raffle ticked was sponsored by Bro. John and Sis. Bobbie. The food was great, ate a lot. I won a Christmas gift - ceiling fan. I'll install that into Larraine's room.
Rhoda and Larraine celebrated Christmas and New Year's Eve in Butuan City with the family there.
I am so thankful for all those who have helped me and my family out last year. I really do appreciate it. One day, I will reciprocate. Hopefully, it's this year.
Keep Smiling and have a Blessed New Year!
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