There are times when I really am upset at myself. Especially when it comes to how I treat my wife and kids. For the life of me, I don't know how Rhoda puts up with all the baloney I dish out. It's not until after I cool down after a heated discussion that I realize what a jerk I've been to my wife. All I have to do is shut my mouth, keep my pride in check, and Listen. But do I do that. No. I do stupid things, jump to conclusions, and stress out Rhoda.
I have to keep my temper in check and remember this lady is the one, Jesus chose for me. She accepted me, for me -- "As Is", and married this battle weary Warrior. I have to constantly remind myself, that Rhoda is my wife, not one of my troopers.
I do love Rhoda. I have to do more for her. I have to love her as Christ loved the church and keep 1 Corinthians 13:4. To do anything else is not love.
Rhoda has done more in keep our family together and raising our children, than I have. I do appreciate her. I can't do what she does. My last trip home in September...5 minutes playing with my son and I was tired. Frenfren wore me out. I had to surrender, give him back to his mommy. Yet, Rhoda can handle him the whole day. She also tutors Larraine late in the evening. Am I there to do that? No. Yet, whenever it gets stressful. I take out my stress on her. I have to learn to stop doing that.
One day, God willing, Rhoda is gonna kick my arse. And, I'm gonna deserve it. She punches hard because I showed her how to do some punching drills. That's why I am hesitant to teach her KAJUKENBO (martial arts).
Rhoda deserves better. I have to control my temper. I have to stop taking her for granted. With Jesus's help, I'm gonna change for the better. Rhoda and my kids deserves it.
I will be a Prophet, Priest, Provider, and Protector to my wife and children.
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